So I am averaging a pound a week.....

Not brilliant right, when you watch the biggest loser and they are losing 8-10, but I am happy with it.

Another big accomplishment was I went on the treadmill today and ran for 3min and 15sec, a personal best!!!!

I am still however having a hard time staying on track, anyone have an idea's???

Some thoughts for a Saturday afternoon

I am not skinny, lets put that out there right now........I want to lose over 120 pounds, not only is that a whole person, that's my sister!! But I never considered myself fat until my shoulder surgery. When it came to find clothes that would fit over this massive sling, I soon found that I would have to be in the double or triple x's for this to be possible......and one day between the humiliation of my mother having to shower me and the occasional glimpse in the mirror, I soon realize that there was a problem.

Like a bad dream, everytime I get out of the shower I now see all the imperfections on my body. The stretch marks, the cellulite, the big love handles the protrude from my hips and it has pretty much been down hill since then.

My question is: When did it become okay for people to comment on someone's weight? I had some weird encounters this week, that has def left me puzzled, and I am sure they were not meant to be hurtful, but when someone is over weight they realize it, how is saying something going to help that???

Well, week two, not so much a success

Well week two, definitely wasn't as successful, as week one was..........I don't know if it was b/c of all the stress that has been going on, or maybe I just fell off the band wagon.......

I bought some new work out video's which I am going to try today, well I will try one of them, but I need to get some motivation back, I did so well week one.

I bought the coolest smoothies at Walmart the other day, can't wait to try them!!!!

Plan for today--exercise

Week Two weight loss - one pound

Total weight loss-4 pounds

Day 3

MMMMMMMmmmmmmmm

Fish again tonight lol.....okay I love fish, I know I just had it yesterday and I need to spice it up, but I love it!!!!!!!


I actually have a few questions:

1)--Does anyone take/believe in supplements??

I for one am so confused when it comes to supplements. I take Fibre Choice, for added fibre in my diet b/c I know that I don't get enough, but it's only 4g.....is there anything out there that is more?

I also started to take green tea, and the only reason why, is b/c I heard it helps you lose weight and I don't like the taste of it in coffee or cold drinks, so I am trying it in the pill form.....only day 2, no results yet.......

2)--What are some good GLUTEN FREE snacks?

See, technically, even though I don't have celiac disease, I have a pretty strong gluten intolerance.....anyone else, would just avoid gluten, but I am stubborn and I don't always, thus I have stomach and digestion problems, but I have made a valid effort in the past few days to avoid it and combined with WW, I do feel better.

3)--Where/What do you use to plan meals?

I tend to use Kraft kitchens for my meal ideas. One of my favourite things to do is cook and I use Goggle calendars to organizer my dinner meals, I would really like something for the whole day, I should check to see if they have that option. I feel like that would really help with my planning. I like Kraft Kitchens a lot, but I need other ideas for meal plans, b/c I am afraid I am going to get bored soon.

Any ideas or suggestions for anything would be greatly appreciate!!!!!

Day two

Ahhhhh, day two, what a crazy day you were........

It started off with the ever so tasty shaken passion tea lemonade, or whatever the heck it is call, and boy was it fantastic.......seriously I love that drink.....I can only imagine how much sugar it has in it when a glass is 4 points, but it's worth it......

For dinner I made haddock and scallops.....Mmmmmm, perfect way to end the night........

Today I had a small taste about what my life will be like very soon enough. For the past 12 weeks, I have been off work b/c I had surgery......you see, I usually work 7-3, which screws up my eating schedule completely, so one of the things I need to get in order is making a shake or something, b/c there is no way I can stop at Starbucks every morning, or lol I need to hope they open at 7am, not 6am!!!!!


One of the things I find insanely frustrating is I feel so alone being overweight, not physically alone, b/c I have my boyfriend who loves me and all, but alone with your feelings of being fat or what it feels to be fat, and I realize, when I am eating chips and my sister is working out, that I have made choices to be fat and I get it, but its very lonely too, you can't shop in all the stores as your friends, you don't check yourself out in the mirrors at the mall etc.........I often wonder how do you get self control.......is it something you just tell yourself everyday or do you just really really want to be thin, so you get self control, and what happens when you really really love food and can't stop yourself.........

These are things I need to learn and tackle before I get thin I guess.......

Day one is behind me

Well, today was so so.........it could have been better, but it could have been worse.....

Let me start out by saying I have 35 WW points I can use

I started out the day perfectly on track.....in fact, when I was out with my friend for coffee, we were joking that I had only used 10 and it was lunch time, how could I possibly use 25 more for the rest of the day.......Then we went to starbucks.......I had planned ahead, knowing I was going there, and I tried to find out the point value, but there website was horrible.....barely having any nutritional information at all.......so my drink was about 4, but I knew that and I was okay with it

Then we went to the superstore...................biggest mistake, chicken tenders and scalloped potato's, what was I thinking............so for dinner, I was left with 6 points, or so I thought, yep those 5 carmel chewies that I couldn't resist that took up another 3 points..............ugh day one and I failed...........

I am trying to stay positive, I made chicken for dinner, so there fore I am only one point over.....

One of the goals I need for this week, is to definitely plan my meals better.....

I barely survived day one, but it's behind me now.............lets see what tomorrow brings

Here we go again

On WW again......This is about my 5th or 6th...........it does work, it has worked...I just have a hard time following thru with anything......I start off so strong and then..........so why will this time be different......that I can't answer, I hope it is, I hope I am done being fat, but like so many times before, I have started and quit....I look into the mirror and think who is this girl, where did them hips come from, when did all these stretch marks appear........This needs to be my time, I need to take control..........But how?

Nothing tastes as good, as being skinny feels..........or so they say

Last night it occurred to me, as I was flipping thru one of the THREE fitness magazine's that I subscribe to, that I was fat. Not morbidly obese, contrary to what my BMI said, but never the less, obese. It was not like I was always fat, it just sort of happened one day, well maybe more than one day, but you know what I mean. The first time I happened I was in 7th grade. We would spend every weekend eating those huge bags of chips, you know the ones you get at Costco, where when you stick your hand in the bag, your whole are is covered in salt. The second time was in high school, enough said, I was in grade 9, we will consider it the fresh man 15. And finally, where I am now. It's not like my family is fat, my sister....she has the will power, I desperately want..... So my journey begins, to be healthy, to feel better about myself, to have more energy... oh hell, I just want to look hot!!!! Here is my story, day by day, as it happens, wish me luck.........